walt

quote of the day::

"She believed in dreams, all right, but she also believed in doing something about them. When Prince Charming didn't come along, she went over to the palace and got him."

- Walt Disney, speaking of Cinderella in 1949.

yo.

so...

i hate being alone

and most people would agree

i mean, except for the rare handful that like having alone time...

i am most definitely not one of those people

i turn into eeyore

its rediculous really

i never know what to do with myself

i just get so lonely and sad and blahh

today is better

even though im still alone...

it only gets crappy in the evening time

"I might have known," said Eeyore. "After all, one can't complain. I have my friends. Somebody spoke to me only yesterday. And was it last week or the week before that Rabbit bumped into me and said 'Bother!'. The Social Round. Always something going on."

in other news...

I started nutrisystems a few days ago

i havent quite been on it a week...

its going okay

its just going to be hard to stick with it

i have to though

i dont want to be the "chubby friend" anymore blah

that's all for now

byee

wow.

so much stuff going on lately.

jared each day is hating me more and more and it makes me wish our situation was so much different than it is. maybe he will end up just cutting me out of his life. it will be better for him anyways, as much as he says he doesnt want that.

im sorry. for everything.

i am also starting nutrisystems today.

i got all the food last night

its overwhelming because the whole months worth of food shows up on one day.

so thats what im doing today sorting them into meals.

AND washing all the dishes my roommate left for me to do while she goes back home for the rest of the week

she treats me like her house keeper. and this is the last time i will ever wash her dishes.

so starting today april 2 i start working on a new me.

wish me luck